HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! (today i turned 40!!)

yup! today im the BIG 4-0!! hard to believe. 
i used to think that was an older age (of course i was like 6 at the time 
i thought that).

and to be honest, i dont feel any older than i did the day before, when i was still 39. heck, i dont feel any older than 25. (state-of-mind)

so...it will be another 365 days until i am 46...and creeping up that hill to 50! wonder if ill actualy make it that far in age. maybe by the time i get there i wont want to be there, the way the world is running as-of-late. seems to me, its getting worse and worse. not any better.

and thats a bit sad for me, because as i advance in years, i should feel safe in my world. but i dont.
i dont even feel safe in my own home. im not fearful of the ppl INSIDE my house, but those on the OUTSIDE whom may try to gain access to the INSIDE. thats what i fear.

todays a fairly eventful one, theres ALOT to do and take care of.

first on the schedule: drs appointment for a pysical.
this is essential in my paln for SUCESSFUL LIFE-CHANGES IN LOSING WEIGHT. i need a physician to monitor my progress.
and, if it heads in the direction of surgery, then so-be-it. ill have it doen to accomplish my goal.

second: U-HAUL. were renting a u-haul for the final move tomarrow.

third: bank i have to deposit a wonderful check my mother-in-law gave me for my birthday. i think ill spend the money on a treadmill. :-) (also part of the plan)

4th: CELBRATE SOMEWHERE we dont usually eat. im wanting a TGI FRIDAYS, or RED LOBSTER, or CHILIES, APPLEBEES kinda meal. i mean, after all..you only turn 40 once in your life time!

and who knows any OTHER events well aquire along the route of todays progression.

**SIGH** never enough hours in a day, and never enough days in a year!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

MICHELLE